everyone's a voyeurist

I’m not angry anymore haha

I’m doinng somthing I’ve never done.

drinking,

it’s gross so i’m mixing it with apple juice
which is making it better and kind of good

drinkin drinkind drinking drinking
listening to broken social scene
and connor

angry:

at sarah palin for being an idiot.

at the girl who lives in the next room for sitting on my bed and on all the things on my bed.

at my school for being a girl school.

at myself for chosing it.

at myself for not realizng how much I love to read sooner.

at myself for being lazy and apathetic.

at myself for wasting my time.

at the people who elect idiots.

at my room mate and our friends for being loud.

at myself for pretending it’s ok.

at them for being inconsiderate.

at people who dictate what art is.

at myself for letting this all get to me.

I’ve grown accustomed to reading in the laundry room.
I find peace in the humming of the dryer.

weekend 2

I’ve officially been here for a week and I’m on my second weekend. Seeing as the luxury of having a vehicle on campus is one that I don’t have, I am forced to find my own excitement. For example, Fall Party is tonight. It doesn’t sound like it’s going to be anywhere near mind-blowing, but I will, at the very least, check it out. Also, there is a shuttle all day on Saturdays that takes students to the mall (no thanks) and downtown. I have a really good feeling about this option because I’m very interested in downtown Roanoke. Tomorrow I will find out if this interest is well-founded. Is well-founded even correct? Anyways, lastly, I rented three movies from the library and they are as follows:

• Gerry - directed by Gus Van Sant (Good Will Hunting, Elephant, Last Days, Paranoid Park). It’s about two guys that get lost in a desert. I really like Gus Van Sant, so we’ll see how that turns out.
  
  
  
• i heart huckabees - I really love this movie but don’t own it for some reason. Helllllllllooo, Jason Schwatzman.
  
  
  
• Stranger Than Paradise and Permanent Vacation - classic black & white independent film. I don’t know much more about it except for the vague description on the back. I’m looking foward to it.
  
  

I would really like to meet some new people outside of school. Hopefully, a visit downtown will help?

we will see

ok, ok

it’s not horrible here unpacked today made a schedule want to take Astronomy French Introduction to Communications Photography Speaks No More Math alone in my dorm room cheez-its boy? i don’t know need my car

i’m here, i’m lonely

4.5

In 4.5 hours I will be out of here.
Maybe not “for good” since there are mant breaks.
But I like to think of it as my first step at getting out of here.

My friends gave me very warm goodbyes.
I was a little disappointed that one person didn’t make an attempt.

So it goes.

I was reading Rant but after finding out that it was packed with my stuff that’s being shipped to Virginia, I’ve started reading Fugitives and Refugees. It’s always sort of been on my mental list but it’s hard to find around here so I forgot about it until Tara gave me her copy as a gift when she left. Long sentence. Six days. Can’t wait.

books i want to read:

1. Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk
2. Bright Shiny Morning by James Frey
3. House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski
4. American Psycho by Brett Easton Ellis
5. Chinese Take-out by Arthur Nersesian
6. Walden by Henry David Thoreau
7. The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
8. World War Z by Max Brooks
9. Possible Side Effects by Augusten Burroughs
10. Selevision by Augusten Burroughs